Sometimes I am concerned that I may "turn off" some people too Christianity because just about every thing I post on Facebook, for example, has to do with prayer or God or the Bible.
I've been saved for the majority of my life -- nearly 29 years now. Sometimes I am ashamed to say that my walk with the Lord has not been anywhere near what it should have been for the majority of that time. In fact, for most of that time, while I know and believe I was saved the entire time, I certainly didn't act like it.
Not only did my outward actions not serve as a testimony for the power of God's grace, my actions were pretty much a denial of Him.
It was only a couple of years ago, now, that I have begun to live and serve and worship Him truly.
I have had those times in my life when I would feel totally on fire for the Lord, but the flame was short-lived and would soon burn out. This has been the only time in my life when the yearning and desire has not only been a constant for such a long time, but has continued to grow as time has passed.
I am still not where I want to be -- I don't read and study my Bible nearly enough, and I haven't yet found a church home and other worshippers with whom to study and visit regularly. I don't pray nearly enough. And I have the desire to go back to waking up early and beginning my day with time with God like I used to, but I haven't been disciplined enough to do it.
But even though I know I want more...I want to worship more, study more, learn more, fellowship more...there is a part of me that truly worries that too much will only turn off people that I normally could witness to.
I have had friends in my past who, while they are wonderful strong Christians and I truly envy their relationship with the Lord (ironically, because envy is a sin, no?), even I have been "turned off" at times by how overboard they have gone with the way they present themselves to the world.
One of the studies I want to do is to reinforce for myself that it's OK. That it's mt job to be a witness...and that yes, there will be those people who think I'm just a crazy Bible-thumper, I need to continue as I am now.
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