Thursday, June 24, 2010

New Woman Movement Chapter 1

I am really enjoying the Voices of the New Woman Movement book I've been reading, even if I've been reading veeeery slowly.

Chapter one was really eye-opening. Usually the first chapter of a book is a bit ho-hum...but not this one.

Imagine that God made men and women to absolutely and clearly reflect His love for us and our relationship with Him.

I've heard a message about being in love with the Lord and having a courtship type relationship with Him. It took me a while to wrap my head around the concept, but I finally did.

This chapter fit into that concept completely too. We as a church are His bride...it makes perfect sense we would fall in love with the Lord and all he has to offer.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

The True Woman Movement

I finally started reading "Voices of the True Woman Movement" by Nancy Leigh DeMoss today. I am really excited about this book and what it may holdfor me. I have only read the intoduction, and already I have been blessed by the reminder in it that there are so many voices in our world, and all of them pull and tug us in all directions -- and usually away from God.

God should be the first voice we seek and heed, though.

The True Woman Movement is something I have read a little about online, but not much. And I sure haven't been adgerent to what the movement teaches that we, as women of God, should seek to live lives of focus on the Lord, and shun anything that is not of Him.

They will have a True Woman conference in Fort Worth in October. I want to go so bad and likely will.

There will be further posts about the book as I complete chapters, then a final "wrap up" entry about the book as a whole.

I look forward to what the book holds for me and how God will use it in my life

Sunday, June 13, 2010

I found a church home

I've been attending Central Baptist Church for a couple of months now, and I have known for a while that that was my church home. I had planned to wait and officially join when mom was feeling stronger and ready to get out and about. Well, the best laid plans...

Today there was no way I could *not* join. I knew today was the day. And all throughout the sermon, I kept trying to find reasons not to walk to the front and join -- after all, I was going to wait for mom to be there so we could stand as a family together.

God had other plans.

I have had such a strong yearning for the feeling of being directly in God's presence as I had had at BSF in Fort Worth. It's been so strong and nearly overwhelming at times.

I felt it today...several times...in Sunday school and during the service. It was so amazing and wonderful and what I have yearned for for so long. I was moved to tears several times this morning and evening at church.

When the invitation was called, I stood firm. It wasn't today...no, Lord, please. Mom's not here with me.

When God calls, though, woe be unto him who doesn't heed the call. And I knew today was the day.

So I'm now a member of Central Baptist Church of Jacksonville. I haven't been an active member of a church for 21 years...Grace Baptist, which is now gone.

It is so amazing and comforting and just RIGHT to be a part of God's family like this again. I spent so much time wandering and alone in my walk with the Lord.

And of course there was so much time during which I was not at all doing what I knew I should...when I was blatantly going AGAINST what I knew was the way I should go.

But despite it all, the Lord still accepts me with open arms. As my heavenly Father, he doesn't care that I was a screw up and did wrong. He cares only that I am repentant for those things, have turned from them and back to Him.

Lord, I praise You and thank You for Your love for me.